I've been feeling a bit homicidal in the traffic today, well maybe not quite homicidal, lets just say stabby. Stop driving 20 kms under the speed limit, it makes me want to stab you! Use your INDICATORS!! I don't like feeling like this, it makes me feel mean and it's not good for my blood pressure. I thought I should quickly (when people get out of the way) come home and write out what is playing on my mind, because feeling stabby is a sure sign of that.
Why, oh why can't cyclists use their bells on a shared walkway? Why do people with small dogs think that No Off Leash, or even No Dogs Allowed doesn't apply to them? Why does the lady at the end of my street dive her mobility scooter with such rudeness? She's run me off the footpath 3 times in the last year, and it's not just me. I've seen her in action at the supermarket, and let me tell you those check out ladies are not impressed at all. Also, why the hell has my dishwasher stopped working?
Let me preface this paragraph with #HEYASIO. I've noticed increased police activity lately, and apparently they are stepping up their game for the G20 Summit that is to hit Brisbane soon. In case there is some awful terrorist activity, the police need to be at the ready, so they've spent this week assertive in their efforts to breathalyze everyone and scare the crap out of P Platers by following them for no good reason. It's crazy, and it's scary. Does being cynical of Australia's Prime Minister mean I am being complacent when I should be alert but not alarmed? Does not agreeing with this government's stance on Asylum Seekers mean that I am happy to open our arms to terrorists? Because no, my answer is no. It scares me that what I think is politicizing has allowed ASIO and Police in this country to have greater powers that diminish our privacy. What really scares me is that my 7 year old has the word terrorist in his vocabulary, the same way I had nuclear war in mine growing up. It's not cool. NONE of it is cool.
What is with all the judgement on the internet lately? Not just on facebook, and no I have not been reading the comments in the wider news stories, I'm not that brave. Why is everyone so strident in their opinions? What has happened to tolerance and understanding? Respect for others differing opinions? There seems to be a shortage of compassion, and frankly, it's a piss off. We are all different, and isn't that great. No one has to be like anyone else. We are all beautiful fucking snowflakes that just need to get along.
I want to move house. I do. I love living near the ocean and I love our little house, there is so much love and so many great memories within these walls. But; no matter how much we love it, it will always be a small house on a small block on a busy street. I really am craving space and quiet, somewhere to spread out and breathe. Some room for a decent sized veggie garden, plant some fruit trees, have chickens, enough bedrooms to have happy children and comfortable guests. Maybe a pool. We all deserve a bit of what we like, don't we?
Are you listening, Universe?