I like forward motion. I don't like for things to sit still, which is ironic, because I myself certainly like to sit still. I always think it is because I am an Aries (the sign of ACTION!), but I think it is just because I am human that I get antsy when plans don't hustle along the way they are supposed to. I am really really really fed up with waiting for the following plans to roll out.
Two things are eating away at my sanity when it comes to this kitchen - the colour, and the size. When we moved in, almost all of the upstairs walls where painted this colour, with carpet to match. Very dirty, and truly hideous. Hours and hours of painting and carpet ripping, and we are still not enjoying a green kitchen. We have updated the appliances and have an extraction fan to fit over the stove, once we get rid of those overhead cupboards. We attempted to paint the bottom cupboard doors white, but are not at all happy with the result, so will replace them when we replace the pantry. (we wanted to put the fridge in there and are 2.5 cm to short, unless we cut into the supporting, load-bearing studs. Erm, no) The disgusting green bench top refuses to die but I have big plans to encase it in stainless steel, bwahaha! The back splash is going to be clean, white subway tile, and there will be a bank of glass front cupboards over the bench on the left side. I can't change the size of it; despite hours spent discussing pushing walls out, there just isn't enough room unless we extend out. And if we are struggling to do this little series of steps, I cannot imagine what it will take to get that done.
It is my dream to live in the country, I think about it all the time. Not being able to see (or hear) the neighbours, having enough room to grow a decent amount of vegetables, being able to plant fruit trees as well as monsters like Avocado and Mulberry, keep chickens, raise some pork and beef for our own freezer, have some goats and sheep and maybe a cow or two to milk. Breathing fresh unpolluted air while looking at beautiful scenery. Yes, this does sound like some city girls ideal of a countryside resort farm stay; but I wouldn't mind the mud and the wood chopping and the animal husbandry. I already look after monkeys all day and they would be happier if they had acres to galoot and adventure in. Sadly, Mr BC (who was exposed to the farming life as a child) does not share my enthusiasm at all. You'd think I had asked him to give up fishing. My ideal also includes internet access obviously, and the beach within reasonable distance. And a pool, and eventually a tennis court. Maybe if we started off with a weekender, and eventually just moved into it, it wouldn't be such a step for him. I will make it happen, but it is taking a while.
I keep thinking that we just need more motivation to get things moving, but the reality is that these projects are being held up by lack of money and/or lack of time, and obviously those are the real issues I am struggling with. There has to be a way forward! I wish I knew what that was, because willing it to happen isn't working!
Kitchen Update
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| Me too, darling. |
Adding a deck to the house
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| Before via the side of my house. Dream deck via |
We have a covered area on the east side of the house, and it is the perfect place for a deck. My dream is to knock out the lounge room wall and replace it with french doors leading to a a covered deck with privacy slats that are high enough to hide the bogan neighbours, but open at the top to allow the bay breezes to enter and cool down the house in summer. There is a nice tropical green outlook from the front and the back, and it would be the perfect spot to eat dinner in the warmer months. This has been my dream for a while, and I struggle every day that it is not yet a reality. The supports are there but the structure would need some adjusting before it would be up to building code for decks. Once the deck was done we could fix that stupid guttering.
Getting the car fixed
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A while ago, the starter engine broke in our car. Because it will cost about $1300 to replace, we have been making do with putting the car in gear and touching a wire to the battery. This works really well; so well, in fact, that a few years later we are still using this solution, but not happily. For all intensive purposes it looks like I am hot wiring the car, except according to Google, the way to hot wire a car is not under the hood but through the casing underneath the steering wheel. (I Googled hot wiring a car to get this image I swear!) The car has other issues (broken stereo, no hubcaps, could really do with a clean..) but popping the bonnet every time I need to start the car is something I am really struggling with. About once a week someone will give me an odd look or ask if I am stealing the car, to which I reply "It's OK, I saw it on Pinterest!" I mentioned to a friend that I was so over this situation, to which she laughed and said 'It's awesome! You aren't embarrassed or anything!" Sigh.
Buying some rural property
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I keep thinking that we just need more motivation to get things moving, but the reality is that these projects are being held up by lack of money and/or lack of time, and obviously those are the real issues I am struggling with. There has to be a way forward! I wish I knew what that was, because willing it to happen isn't working!
Is time and money holding you back from anything? Do tell, so I can stop feeling so bad about it!
