Fasten your Seatbelts...

.........we are coming in to land. The end of the year is fast approaching, & I would like to get there without my head between my knees. I am hoping for a smooth descent, with no crash landing! 


I came across this turtle on the beach recently, & tears stung my eyes. This beautiful creature was the size of a car bonnet, & here it was, washed up, bloated & dead. (Also it really stank) I realised that I wasn't just mourning for the turtle, it was a reflection of how I felt heading into the end of the year. I feel like I am carrying everything on my back, & it's weighing me down, man! It has been a stressful year, with illness, family drama, financial woes...the list could go on but it won't. I'm sick of thinking about it, I certainly don't want to talk about it.

Just let it all hang out!

So, we have been scheduling more fun into our days. Fishing, walking on the beach before dinner, swimming. I think it might be working...

Fail Whale jumpers courtesy of my clever MIL.

Taking the time to reconnect as a family, to rediscover our shared differences. To focus on strengthening our little family unit. To remove unnecessary drama from the equation.

I know, hard to leave at the curb. But I was strong.

Not hormonal.

I don't think any of us have been feeling ourselves. Putting up barriers, retreating into ourselves. Ironically, the weaker I am the more energy is expended putting up barriers that don't even work, they are that weak. It's a complex paradigm, even for someone as psychopathetic as me.  The weaker I feel the more keenly I feel the spears that are thrown at me, when those spears would normally glance off or be dodged effortlessly. Time to break down some walls & rip off those disguises, & nurture that inner strength!

Breakfast in the Chaos House.

Snatch the opportunity to relax when we can. Get enough vitamin D. Get into the garden, the house, our projects, ourselves. Part of that is deciding to opt out of the stress & drama of travelling to Sydney this year for a family Christmas. Which is probably a bit of a shock to some, but I am sure that everyone will still enjoy their Christmas without us.


Another part of this is moving forward on things that have been put aside due to lack of funds, lack of energy & lack of motivation. So today....my new dishwasher is being installed! Woohoo!

How is your landing going, heading into the end of the year? Are you charging over the finishing line, arms up in victory? Or are you having a lie down waiting for the stretcher to arrive?

xx